Where the Fuck is V?

Butch

-I couldn’t sleep. The only time that I’d even come close was when I passed out from drinking the entire bar. I lay there in V’s bed staring up at the ceiling. The scents of our bonding still filled the air thickly. I wanted to run from it and wrap myself up in it at the same time. Shit kept replaying in my head and it wasn’t the sex, though God that was unforgettable. No, it was just laying there with him. Listening to the sounds of our hearts trying to come to some type of rest. Completely exhausted and twined together. At peace… I swallowed the lump in my throat and sat up suddenly. I’d given him his time and his space and now I was just pissed. I shouldn’t have let him walk out that fucking door in the first place. If I hadn’t been one raw nerve at the time then I wouldn’t have let him pull that shit. I cursed myself for a fool as I made my way out in the living area stopping short when I noticed that it had been put back in order. I hadn’t even noticed anyone was here but everything was all spick and span like nothing had happened. I did note that a lot of the furniture had been completely replaced with shit that looked like I would slip a disk if I even tried to move it. I guess Fritz had gotten tired of repairing broken furniture all the time. I had to shake my head with a small smile remembering back to the first time the Pit had been laid to waste. Was probably a good call on the doggens part because Lord knows I planned on ripping it to shreds again when I found my stubborn ass male. I sat down in front of V’s computers and lit up a cigarette. The only things in this room I would never dream of trashing. His precious toys. I was no computer wiz by any stretch of the imagination but I knew how to do the basic shit. I’d gone through three smokes before I finally got up the courage to pull up the security cameras. I dialed it back straight to that morning and sat frozen in place as I watched him get up. I was helpless to stop the tear that rolled down my cheek when I saw him lightly touch me before leaving the room with the robe on. I swapped the camera and followed him out into the Pit and watched him vanish. I lit up another smoke with shaking hands and almost dropped it in my lap when Vishous returned. I could almost feel his rage through the camera as he ripped the robes from his body. And there was my dumb ass bounding into the room like could save the fucking day. God, I wish I could rewind this moment and make him stay. I was so wrapped up in my own doubt. The truth never occurred to me. I wanted to just reach through the screen and pull him back. With a heavy sigh, I flipped the cameras again and followed him down to the Escalade and watched it make tracks out of the compound.-

-I killed the video feeds and pulled up the location of the GPS on the Escalade. I had to blink a few times to make sure that I was seeing the screen right. The fricking thing hadn’t even made it past the last gate out of the compound. I scratched my nails through what was the beginnings of a scraggly beard. Itched like a bitch, I should shave it… later… Maybe he’d calmed down enough to demateralize and just left the SUV there. For shits and giggles I tracked down his phone and that son of a bitch was still sitting in his room somewhere.- Well fuck. -I pushed away from the computers and went to my room to pull a t-shirt on. Nothing fancy today just jeans, t-shirt and my shitkickers. Was lucky I was even up and mobile considering the shit attitude I was sporting. I walked right past everyone in the mansion on my way out the front door, not even hearing a damn word of whatever they were saying to me. I figured the walk would do me some good and if they thought I was leaving the mansion for good on foot they were dumber than I gave than a box of lint. I chain smoked the whole way, lighting the next cigarette from the butt of the previous and leaving a trail behind me. I found the Escalade in the ditch and I couldn’t help but flash back to only a few days ago when V had ditched the fucker and tried to get me to run away with him somewhere. I lowered my head rubbed my fingers over my eyes.- Focus, Butch. Come on, you can do this. -I opened the door and was surprised to find that the dome light didn’t kick on automatically. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my penlight. The keys where still in the ignition for fucks sake. I ran the light over the rest of the interior and didn’t see anything else out of the ordinary right off. With a grunt I hopped up in the seat and tried to turn the rig over. All I got was an clicking sound. The fucking battery was dead as a doornail. I flashed the light over instrument panel and tapped the gauges with my finger. Yeah this thing wasn’t going anywhere. Not only was it braindead but it was outta juice as well. I leaned back in the seat and ran my hand behind my neck squeezing out some of the tension and twisting my head from side to side.- Why the hell would you just up and leave the thing running, V? -I pocketed the keys and hopped back out. I couldn’t help but feel the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was like Janie all over again. I’d let her walk away too.- FUCK!! -I slammed the door closed a little too hard and the window shattered. It didn’t help anything but the sound was nice. Not to mention the destruction. Though safety glass wasn’t as exciting as I wanted it to be. I turned the light to the ground and made a slow circuit around the Escalade. Widening my search when I found nothing but my foot prints leading in. He had to have dematerialized but I still couldn’t figure out why the vehicle was left running the whole damn time. That shit was just stupid. Did all kinds of damage to the engine. No closer to any sort of answer, I turned and walked back the mansion with my head low.-