My Heart

Butch

-I came back to the mansion with JM and he was all too happy to get the fuck out of the car and hightail it back to his room. There was still entirely too much darkness left to the night and I didn’t know what the fuck I was going to do with it all. I didn’t want to sleep, I didn’t want to return to the room I was using, and I sure as fuck didn’t want to go back to the hollowed out Pit. I got out of the car that I had used and hung the key back up on the board. I was all set to head toward the weight room when I turned around and saw the Escalade again.-Fuck… -I walked over to the vehicle and had my keys out before I even thought twice about it. I got into the driver’s seat and closed the door behind me. I was instantly surrounded by the smell of the only being I would ever love. I laid my head back on the headrest and closed my eyes.- I miss you Vishous. So goddamn much… -I looked over at the seat next to me and there was a Sox cap. I actually whimpered as I reached over and ran my fingers over it. There was so much that was… us, just us. I picked up the hat and smelled it. Both of us… Just another thing that we shared. I pulled it on and just sat there for awhile, walking through the memories that had been our life together. The keys were in the in the ignition and I had the SUV started and shooting off down the road before I thought better of it.- Fuck this. We don’t end like this. -I knew that I probably wasn’t leaving enough time for me to make it back to the mansion before the sun came up but I didn’t care. I would find a closet to hide in if I had to. I not only knew where he was but the vehicle seemed to drive there of its own accord. I didn’t have to think about it, I was done thinking about why this could be wrong and just kept moving forward. I pulled into the secured garage and couldn’t help but remember the last time I had been here. I’d gone up to that room and found a horribly tortured lesser hanging from the ceiling. I really hoped that I wouldn’t find the same thing this time. I nervously chewed my fingernails on the way up the elevator. He could very well just tell me to go get fucked, I expected him to. At least then I would know I guess… I stepped out into the hall and stood in front of the door that I knew he was behind. I could use my key and walk right in but that was… rude. Who knows what he was up to in there. I lifted my shaking hand up and knocked on the door.-

Vishous

I had passed out the moment I landed on the bed, drained, depleted was the only way I knew how to put it. My brain was as worn out as my body and I gave in to the pull of sleep. As soon as I sunk into the darkness, I’d wished I hadn’t. The Scribe Virgins words seemed to take on a life of their own (Obliterate it all, can take it from you.) My back was bare and so was the heart that I’d discovered existed in my chest a year ago. He was gone, I knew of him but he was gone from me. He was another Brother, the connection gone, the bonding never happened. I could see it in his deep hazel eyes; he stood right there in this dream state and looked at me with no more emotion than that of a good friend. I jerked up out of the screwed up sleep so suddenly that I misjudged where I lay on the bed and landed in a heap of black sheets and weapons still strapped to me on the floor. My head was pounding wildly but nowhere near as harsh as my heart. I fought through the tangled up mess of sheets to finally get up to my knees, I shredded the holster and black T-shirt off that I passed out in. My ungloved hand went immediately over my shoulder so that I could feel the tops of the deeply carved in letters that ran from one side clear to the other side of my back. My head dropped down in a massive sense of relief. It was still there, he was still a part of me. As much as it was destroying me not to be with him right now, it would kill me from the inside out to lose him completely from every part of my being. I was kneeling there with my head bent and my breathing coming in long ragged breaths when I felt it. It was instantaneous, every vein in my system lit up like a lite bright jacked up on supercharge, the blood that poured through them heated up like molten lava flooding through me. Even though I knew he was drawing closer, I couldn’t move, I stayed there for what felt like hours with my glowing eyes fixated on the door until I heard the knock. That was all it took to have me up and across the room jerking it open. There was no thinking, no plotting out how to address or easy flow of words, once again I went by actions and reaction alone. My hand came up to grip the back of Butch‘s neck and I pulled you inside, I didn’t even need to think a full second before the door slammed shut behind you and when it did I had you pressed back up against it with my forehead leaning against yours. I was fully prepared to take a knee to the gut right now or anything else just as long as I had some type of physical contact with you.

Butch

-I was not at all sure what I was going to find on the other side of the door that I stood in front of. I half expected a shout that would tell me to go away. I really hoped that wasn’t the case though because that would just crush me, utterly and completely crush me. I didn’t have long to think about it or anything else because the door swung open and I was being pulled inside of it. I had a split second to take in your shirtless appearance before my back hit the now closed door. The hat I had on fell to the floor when you pressed your forehead to mine. My eyes closed and I just drew in a breath. My chest burned with how fast my heart was pumping out blood. There it was… It was like waking up from some terrible dream and discovering you weren’t dead after all. I moved my head back far enough to look around. My eyes flicked to the rest of the place quickly to make sure that we were alone and nothing fucked up was going on. When my eyes settled on you again I could see that you were every bit as weary as I was. My face creased with concern for you and my thumb came up to trace over your tattooed brow. Why we always went through these cycles I would never know. Too much passion burned through us to stay at a steady pace for any length of time. It had happened before, it would happen again. We tear each other apart and come back together again. The image of the destroyed wreckage of the Pit flashed through my mind. I grabbed either side of your head firmly and pushed off of the door, turning to land your back against it instead.- Don’t you see, Vishous? It doesn’t matter where either of us are. You will always be mine and I will always be yours. You can’t possible leave something that is that much a part of you. You can’t run from me anymore than I can run from you. -I reached over your back and trailed my fingers over the name there.- But you have to know, this guy… this name on your back… It means nothing without you. I’m not him without my Savior. I’m nothing… -The tears started again and I just let them. I needed to get everything out before I lost my mind completely.- I had finally been able to do that again. To take in that evil. Finally! Because of you. My only thoughts were to get home to my hellren, not the huge door that I’d left open to that fucking evil son of a bitch. -I stopped to take a breath and my fingers tightened in the hair at the base of your neck.- I fucked up. I know I did and I’m sorry. But you and I… we aren’t done. We will never be done. You could tell me to get the fuck out of here right now and that wouldn’t change. I would still be yours. And as such, you will always hold my heart and my soul with you. -I gave up, I was so tired and I had poured it all out as best as I could. My fingers let go of your hair and I fell against you with my arms wrapped around your neck. My head rested on your bare shoulder and I mumbled into your skin.- Please, Vishous. I will beg if I have to. Don’t make me leave. I love you so damn much it hurts.

Vishous

When neither the knee to my groin or gut came, I leaned closer. There was always that heat that radiated from Butch, it was welcoming, relaxing and all him. Not many had seen the full fury of my anger unleashed; I’d always kept a tight rein on it, only releasing it in ways that suited me, like a few nights ago. But Butch had not only seen it, he’d been on the receiving end of it more than a few times. Yet even so Butch stayed with me, I knew I wasn’t the easiest of males to be with, my communication skills were elementary at best. My fingers tightened their hold on the back of your neck while my other hand grabbed a hold to your side, no motherfucking way was I letting go. Even when you flipped the situation around and I found my back hitting up against the wall I kept my hold. Each word you spoke rang true in my ears but it wasn’t them alone that had my crystal clear gaze moistening up. No, it was the fact that I had brought you to such lengths that your face was now streaked in wetness. That right there hurt worse than any punch to the face or jab to my kidneys. “I’m sorry Cop, I can tell you fifty reasons why I lost it but fact is none of it matters, I fucked up and handled that shit wrong. I know stuff will get screwed and end upside down but all that matters to me is in the end what you just said is true, your mine. I can’t do this life without you Butch, not now that you showed me what it’s like to feel and be touched. There’s just no going backwards from that.” The fingers that had been gripping your neck slid up into your hair and my other at your side moved around to your lower back to pull you in tighter. “Fuck! I love you Nallum, I’d sooner cut my other nut off then send you away from me.”

Butch

-I easily melted against you when your hand dropped to hold me close. It was so natural for me now that I couldn’t imagine anyone else ever touching me. My head came up from where I’d rested it as soon as you started talking. I stared with the same kind of wonder that I always felt when I was looking straight into your eyes. It was so strange to see something so undeniably beautiful on a face that was unmistakably male. It was almost like a string of diamonds laying against a big ole adam’s apple. I ducked my head some to hide the smile that thought brought. I really didn’t want to tell you that but god it was so true. I placed my hand on the center of your chest, angling my torso back a bit. The hand balled up in a fist and I rapped your chest lightly over your heart.- Mine. It’s where I will always be. -I licked my lip and tilted my head some to get a better look at the stunning male in front of me. My gaze dropped lower at the mention of your nut only to run slowly back up your body with a grin. Millions of deliciously naughty images rolled through my mind and by the time I locked eyes with you again I saw nothing but our naked bodies entwined.- That’s not your nut, that’s my nut and you are leaving it right where it fucking is cause I plan on using it. -I thrust my groin right up against yours and leaned back far enough to take my leather coat off. I was still dressed from coming straight off of patrol; my fingers worked quickly to remove coat, weapons and even shirt. I let out a relieved breath as I leaned back against you. My eyes closed and rolled some at the feel of skin on warm skin. When my eyes opened again everything was right with my world once more. My forearms hit the door just above your shoulders and I crushed my lips to yours with all the need of someone that needs to feel their lover’s body once more.-

Vishous

I leaned my head back against the door but kept my iridescent eyes locked on you. Once again I felt whole, not ripped with jagged edges stabbing me from the inside out. “That won’t change Butch, in me is where you will always be, my blood, my heart and my whole damn system.” One dark brow shot up as I watched that tongue of yours slip out to sweep over your lips, I probably watched it with a bit too much interest but damn I already missed that tongue. I did however catch the look you gave me when your eyes went a roaming and damn if it didn’t have me grinning with a little bit of tongue licking on my own lips. I also didn’t try to hide the severe shiver that ran through me at hearing you stake claim on my body parts. “All yours Cop, all fucking yours, and it’s at your disposal any damn time you want to use it.” I grunted out a groan and pressed back with just as much pressure when you thrust against me. There wasn’t time for much else because DAMN!! All the sudden you were place I locked my arm back around you and held you right there in a death hold. Fuck, skin on skin, yeah that had me rock hard and ready to fuck a hole in the ground. With all the screwed up shit that had went down, I was more than amped up for some hardcore makeup fuck me hard sex. I barely had time to angle my head when next thing I knew your arms were braced on either side of my head and warm lips were smashed over mine. That was all I needed to feel, my mouth opened and my tongue dived in like it was digging for gold and I would find it down the back of your throat.

Butch

-It felt like my world had gone from black and white to brilliant technicolor. Always at the beginning of a relationship there would be moments of awkward, where lips might not mesh up right and you get a clash of teeth or uncertain body movements. We were so far beyond point that it was hard to remember what it had been like to question how you would move or react. It was a thing of beauty. As soon as your mouth opened I knew automatically how to mold to your lips. My body knew the dance, pushing and pulling at all the right times to get the most pleasure for both. My hands fell from the door and I scratched my fingers up and down your sides and up through the small of your back, all while my hips rolled and rocked in time with you. I didn’t even try to hold back the sounds that tumbled into your mouth from deep in my chest. I never held back noises or reactions with you, if anything I made them louder. Sex was so much funner when I could scream at the top of my lungs as well. And fuck, you could make me call the rafters down on top of our heads. The moment your tongue speared deep inside of my mouth I grabbed it with my teeth and my fangs jumped to the occasion, punching through the soft tissue of your tongue. I growled and threw my entire body against you as I tasted your blood once more. For some reason I couldn’t even remember the last time that I had tasted the rich liquid. I pulled my head back some with fangs still anchored in place before coming back to where I had started. I hissed some and took my fangs from your tongue only to grab it right back up between my lips. My bonding scent broke out like a hot sweat all over my body. One hand dove down the back of your already tight leathers to grab your ass in a tight hold. I wanted the pants off your fucking body and that’s exactly what my other hand set about doing, pulling and yanking on the front of your leathers.-

Vishous

A savage growl crawled up my throat the second I felt your fingers scraping down my sides and back. This is where it all fell into place, no matter what might be going on in the outside world or better yet in the Manse, when it was just us like this, nothing else mattered. The growl that was easily coming out turned into something mixed with a groan and a moan. There was no thinking, my brain was on the backburner, and only thing that I was going on was pure feeling and reaction, which is why my body was easily following right along with yours. Fuck, who would have thought that the human hard nose cop that walked in the door not that damn long ago would have me against not just any door but the one of my Penthouse, grinding away against me. My hand slipped from the small of your back to shove down into the waist of your pants so that I could grip a hold of your ass. Ahhhhh yeah…that’s the good stuff right there. My hips jacked up off the door and I rubbed, grinded and shoved my throbbing length right dead center between your legs. I wanted more of those wickedly delicious sounds; they were truly some kind of undoing inside my head and body, each one more decadent than the last. My tongue swept around the inside of your mouth, tasting up all that is you, when I felt those fangs spear through it, I almost slid down the damn door. A mix of pain and pure ecstasy of pleasure seared through me. It was a teasing dance, one I enjoyed to its fullest, you pulling back, coming in for more. The hand that was shoved all the way down your pants managed to work my fingers over the warm skin until I found that oh so fucking heated up happy place. I had to stretch my arm out some when you went for a mad tearing spree at the front of my leathers, eventually after a few seconds I gave up and jerked my hand free of your pants. Pulling my head back and laying my hand on your chest to push you back just a couple steps. “Let me help you there Cop.” I finished the job and just ripped the front of my leathers the rest of the way open then shoved them down my legs so I could kick them off and away from me. I wrapped my fingers around my already harden length and gave myself a few good strokes before I nodded at your pants. “Turnabouts fair play, let me see my prize Butch.” 

Butch

-The muscles in my ass flexed and tightened as your hand laid claim to my ass. I still remembered the sting of the flesh even if I didn’t feel it anymore. I could only imagine what it would have been like to feel you pounding away at that tender ass. It was something that I had wanted so bad that I could almost taste it and I even considered begging for it. I flushed at the thought and hoped you didn’t catch it as I knew you sometimes did. You were bringing out sides of me that I would have never thought were there, not in a million years. I had to let go of your tongue so that I could recover my breath. I swallowed a healthy amount of your blood and gasp for air as you ground up against me.- Oh god yes… -I could feel the clear imprint of your hard cock rubbing along mine and it was driving me insane. My eyes flashed brightly when you put your hand to my chest and pushed me away. I was forced to let go of my hold on your ass and I really didn’t want to. My blunt nails scraped over your skin as I stood back with a growl. I didn’t want to let go of you for an instant now that I had you in front of me but I quickly changed my tune when you took your pants off. I literally drank in the sight of you standing in front of me naked. I wanted to reacquaint myself with every inch of that body. I was drooling just to taste you once again. A long groan rolled out of me as I saw your hand working over you own length. I almost dropped to my knees right then and there but I realized that you said something. I looked up to see your expression and I understood completely. My thumbs tucked into the waist of my leathers at the back of my pants. I swayed my hips back and forth as my hands moved forward. I opened the front of the pants just barely enough to where I could get my hand down the front. I pulled my bent cock upward so that the dripping head was free. I bit my bottom lip to keep from grinning wickedly. I pushed my hips forward and took a rolling turn until my back as facing you. I looked over my shoulder at you as I opened my pants the rest of the way and started to slowly pull them down. I pushed them past my ass and bent all the way over, even tossing in a sinful moan. I stayed right there like that and deliberately took my time undoing the laces on my shitkickers. I widened my stance and looked at you under the span of my legs as I pulled the boots off. I threw them across the room followed up by my socks. I ran both hands up one of my legs as I straightened back up and tossed you another look over my shoulder before dropping the pants the rest of the way down my legs. I kicked them over by the rest of the discarded clothes and finally turned back toward you. I let my gaze wander around the room, the possibilities here were endless.- Table, bed, or other nallum? Where do you want me? -I licked my lips and leaned in close to you to flip the lock closed on the Penthouse door.-

Empty

Butch

-I almost mechanically got out of the bed that I had been laying in. I knew that he had returned before the shutters had closed down and it actually kind of surprised me. The way that he had left with no word on where he was going I had assumed that he would stay out. It didn’t matter really. It wouldn’t have changed what I chose to do even if I had known that he would return. Somehow my feet carried me toward the Pit. One foot in front of the other and I just kept walking until I was standing at the door. If I had been paying attention I might have realized that he wasn’t here either. Everything that I did seemed so… final. The door swung open to a scene that exactly portrayed my heart right now. I took two steps through the wreckage and fell to my knees on the ground. Not a sound came out of me, I was too stunned by the destruction, but tears rolled down my face. I stayed there for longer than I meant to trying to see the path back to happiness. It wasn’t there. There were no rainbows and unicorns in this love story, only pain on top of more pain. And to think, just 24 hours ago I had been the happiest fucker alive. I stood up from the floor and turned my tear streaked face to where I knew there was a camera. If this was what he wanted, he got it. My expression was flat and as dead inside as I felt. I had some things to do before I left this warzone. I cleared my throat and wiped my face clean before I set about the task of cleaning the place up. I hauled every piece of broken furniture to the garbage, including the very bed that we had slept on. Cleaned out pieces of broken wall, glass and whatever else. It took me a long time but it wasn’t like I had anything better to do right now, I wasn’t sleeping that was for sure. When I had all the debris was cleared I even took time to sweep and vacuum up the last of it. I now stood in the center of a hollow space and it was like it had been scraped clean of all feeling. I walked over to V’s computers and pulled up a simple notepad. I sat down and just began typing. It could very well be the last thing that I ever said to my heart and I needed to get it out.- You walked out that door when you knew that I was too weak to stop you. You left me no room to say ‘you’re right’ or ‘I’m sorry’. Instead you left me with ‘I have to get out of here before I end up beating the fuck out of you.’ Wouldn’t both our dad’s be proud of you for that… You told me once that if I needed space from you all I had to do was ask you to stay in the manse. You were clearly were either lying or that just didn’t apply to me as well. Whatever the case may be, you made damn well sure that I wasn’t welcome back. -I paused to wipe another tear from my face. The screen was becoming blurry but I wasn’t done yet. I shifted over to the other screen on his computers and drew up an order for every piece of furniture that had been destroyed, throwing in my best guess on the building materials that it would take to repair the damage. The furniture part was easy but the walls that had been ruined were not something that I could repair, I didn’t have that expertise. I left the order sitting there on the screen unfinished, unpaid but ready to go at the simple push of a button. That was not my decision to make, it was his. I returned to the notepad and left all that I was going to say at this point.- If you want to find me, I left my heart and soul with you already. -I saved the file, unnamed, and left it on the screen. My eyes closed tightly for a brief moment before I stood up from the chair and left the Pit.-

Vishous

I worked clear through the day; hours and minutes ceased to matter and so did sleep. I worked continuously on blade after blade. It might be helpful if I didn’t shatter each one before they were ready to form. There wasn’t a single spot on my body that wasn’t drenched in sweat or a part of my upper body that wasn’t aching from the ongoing pounding and beating away on the metal. The options before me were bleak, I tried to reason with myself at times, thinking and replaying it over just so I could re-examine it from all angles. I could see why he was pissed, could understand the reasoning behind such a reaction as losing it on me if he had. Still nothing could bring my mind around to the fact of it being ok for Butch to leave, absolutely nothing. Arguing was just that, arguing, hell, hit me, cuss me out, hurl words at me but don’t move out. I had knowledge in so many fucking areas but this; I was a fish out of water. I could cover your back, take out a threat, and go toe to toe with the big bad and ugly, what I couldn’t do is deal with my bonded walking out on me. He’d become my weakness from the get go, and when Butch left me the last time, I sunk down to depths that were pure insanity, he witnessed those lows, so this would not be a shocker. Only this time was different, this time coldness closed in around me, shrouded me in a darkness that was even new to me. How many times did I need to be left before I got the point? I’d walked through hell and back to prove myself, taken beatings, killed masses and went up against the unthinkable odds and this only verified how fucking stupid I’d been to think that anyone would stick it out with me. Each time I tried to see past this day all I could see was a brick wall blocking my path. The idea of day after day of climbing into a bed that was empty, living in a space that was no longer occupied with him, his presence, his scent….his touch, it was certain madness. My gaze flickered to the fire burning brightly, he flames danced before me and before I thought better of it I pulled my phone out and sent Wrath a voice mail. “Outta here for a while, set one of the Brothers on security detail, I’ll be pulling nightly patrols and you know how to reach me if needed.” I shut down the temp on the beast in front of me and grabbed up my jacket along with my daggers. I left the same way I had the previous nights, down through the tunnels and once outside I dematted to the balcony of my penthouse. As soon as my booted feet touched down on solid ground the double doors opened and when I stepped in the candles flared to life.” Home fucking sweet home.” Smirking with a cruelness still curling my lip up, I stripped as I walked to the bathroom, shower first then plotting out the nights fight plan on the streets, down to basics, down to the one thing I could depend on to always be there.

Butch

-I went back to the room that I would probably be occupying from now into the foreseeable future. It was just a room. It wasn’t my room. Four walls to surround myself in when the sun came up. I knew the moment he left the mansion. I could feel it in my blood. I could have almost tracked his course, I knew exactly where he was going, it was where he usually went when it all came crashing down. Just like I knew that he was in his forge before. He hadn’t even gone back to the Pit. I shouldn’t be surprised by that. The state that he left it in… I didn’t want to go back there either. I walked straight into the room and went to the small bag of things that I had. Tonight, I was up for patrol with V in fact. That last part wasn’t happening but whatever… I pulled my leathers and weapons out of the bag, gearing up for the night. I considered just going out by myself but I wouldn’t want to break any protocol now would I? No, that was ‘crash the whole house down’ bad. I grabbed JM, least he wouldn’t want to talk to me. When we got to the garage I stood next to the Escalade for a long while. I could almost see him sitting in the SUV waiting to hit the streets and telling me to hurry the fuck up. My nostrils flared and swallowed about three lumps that formed in my throat. I was rooted in place in front of the vehicle. Of course he didn’t take it. He didn’t need it. I was the inferior one that ruined everything. John must have been having a hard time getting my attention because he stopped waving his hand at me and just started shaking me instead. The concern was written clearly across his face, I didn’t have to read his rapidly moving hands to know that he was worried. I blinked a few times and stared at the recruit with a blank expression.- It’s fine. We just need to find a new ride is all. -I knew for a fact that the enclosed space of the Escalade smelled richly of Vishous and I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t share the ride into town with the ghost of my love. I walked over to the wall that held keys of cars that could be used and picked a set randomly. I punched the alarm button to find the car and got in without even taking note of what it was. The only important part to me right now is what it wasn’t. I smashed my fist on the power button of the music when it turned on automatically. I was in no mood for music. Only quiet. JM got into the car somewhat hesitantly and I shot out of there like a bullet. One thing about whatever car this was, it was fast and handled much better than Escalade. John Matthew was hanging on to everything in sight to keep from flying around the car as I took the corners at mach ten. I avoided all of the cops normal traps and slid the car into a space downtown that I picked completely randomly. My companion jumped out of the car as soon as it came to a stop almost like he had a spring under his ass. If he could talk I’m sure he would be cursing me out right now. Oh yup, look at that, he was. His hands moved so quickly that I even missed a few that no doubt were pretty rich. I ignored it and took off down the sidewalk. He could follow me or not, I’d done my job by bringing him in the first place. We walked the streets for hours before we finally found some lesser. We followed their stink into an abandon warehouse. John fired off a few sweet shots while I just ran headlong into the fray. I didn’t even waste my time exchanging punches or even witty comebacks. The first guy threw a fist at me and I just turned with it, taking the momentum out of the swing, and bringing up my dagger at the same time. One solid hit to the heart and he was gone before he even started fighting. I was completely emotionless as I turned on the other two that JM had shot. A dagger in each hand and they were finished in one swift movement. I wiped my blade off on my pants and came back to JM who had found another guy coming in the door after the three, now dead, lesser. He finished the albino off and was trying to say something to me as I walked by him but I wasn’t paying attention. He grabbed me by the arm and spun me around so that I could see what he was saying. ‘What’s up your ass?’ I looked up at him and spoke evenly.- Nothing. Nothing is up my ass. -I turned back around and took a different path back to the car in case we might turn up more lesser along the way. We didn’t. It was fine either way with me. I didn’t care anymore.-

Vishous

I shouldn’t have been surprised, really I fucking shouldn’t have but when the light flooded my darkness I covered my eyes instinctively even as my body tensed to fight. I had done the shower thing and dressed in clothes that I had kept at the Penthouse, always my same gear. Now here I was on the streets, stalking them relentlessly. I’d ran into a couple small groups of newly made Lesser, it was almost sad how easy it was to take them out..almost. Fuck, I had one who grabbed a hold of my leg and tried biting me; come on what the fuck is that shit and another that thought it was cool to bring a twig to a knife fight. Who the hell was training these idiots, Mr. Rogers? Right now I just wanted some good bloody down and dirty fighting, instead I get the Scribe Virgin showing up in a back alley way. My head raised a notch and I stared straight on, but as always I couldn’t see not lick of her features, that hood hanging in all the right places made sure of that. I didn’t see her move but before I could blink she was right there in front of me. Yeah I thought, this is exactly what I needed tonight. Groaning, I waited and thankfully I didn’t have to wait long. (The Brotherhood just got back together and here you are out from under them. This is not good for them or for you Vishous, you land a target on your back.) The snort that came out was instant, target, wasn’t that what we always were. I kept that shit to myself but it did me little good. (I left you alone, I stayed away purposely because of you, then all the sudden I felt a shift in the delicate fabric of life, your life Vishous. Hate me I know you do but you are a necessary part of not only this war but the survival of this race.) I shoved my dagger in its holster and just let out one tired as all get out ragged breath. “I’m really not in the mood for this tonight, not now.” She didn’t move, but even as I did she was right there with me. (Tonight it is Vishous son of Bloodletter, time doesn’t wait for you or no one, least of all I don’t.) I didn’t get a chance to utter another word before one hooded hand came up to lie almost absently on my shoulder. One second I was standing in a dingy alley, the next I was on the other side. The whiteness was always overbearing and I wanted to claw my eyes out. My face broke out in a full on scowl but I knew it was pointless to blow out a bunch of steam. “Now what’s the point of this, am I getting yanked back somewhere or maybe this time I get to slaughter more for the sake of the Bloodletter.” I could hear the birds, most would say it was musical to the ears, right now it sounded like a nails on a chalkboard to mine. (I offer this to you one time Vishous, one time I will give this to you. You have come to the point that it all fell a part, all that you thought was, is not, all that you believed to be, no longer is. I can take it from you, obliterate every second of it.) It hit me then, this wasn’t about some warped time shit, or punishment. She knew, like she always knew what had and was going on. Even before I spoke I was shaking my head. “No, I don’t want anything from you, especially that, you can’t take him from me, as much as I know that would please you and right now probably him also, no, in no uncertain terms, leave me as I am.” I really was tired, my tone of deliverance was tired and I was so fucking done with thinking. Right now I knew I could pass the hell out even before my eyes closed, I guess this is what it was like when you gave up the fight, when you just didn’t have the energy to battle anymore, at least not at that moment. I took a step closer to her, my arms hung loose at my sides. “You’ll never get this and there isn’t a language in existence that I could speak to translate it any differently than I am now. What I might have believed was, is no longer but in no way will I give up what I hold in my memories and within myself. Now I will live solely as the Warrior I was and I will die the same way. I am and will be no more or less than that.” I waited for the repercussions of my little speech, waited to be taken down a peg or a shit load of them,instead the floor spun under my feet, the whiteness dissipated and before I could suck in another breath I was standing on the balcony of my penthouse, not the alley but where I had started out the night. My head fell back between my shoulder blades and I let out that breath I had wanted to suck in. Screw this night, I thought. The doors opened up and I walked on through them, I only took my jacket off and dropped it in a chair before I landed face down in the bed.

Shattered

Butch

-It took me what seemed like an eternity to reach the Pit. Left alone to my own thoughts I found the struggle to be agonizing and not because of the strain on my physical body. Tasting and smelling nothing but lesser brought straight to the forefront everything that I had been running from. All part of my duty to the race… I either pulled my head out of my ass and dealt with this shit or I would be a complete and utter failure. I knew immediately that Vishous wasn’t here, though he was somewhere close.- Keep it together Butch. You’re in the Pit. He can’t get you here. You made it home, it will be okay. -When I went out on patrol anymore it always felt like a ‘kill or be dragged to hell’ type of sitch. Survival instincts at their best. I refused to just lay down and give up but I hadn’t exactly been volunteering for the front lines either. It was a weakness that I saw as clear as the useless finger on my own hand. I needed to be able to stand in front of the Omega and not piss my own pants in fear. It was one thing to go up against something and not really know what its capabilities where or exactly how evil it was. It was quite another to feel that evil in every fiber of your body and know for a fact that it enjoyed tormenting you and using you… That part was really the worst of it. If I gave in, if I budged one inch, he would turn me against everyone in this place. Most especially my own husband. That was actually where the Omega had made his mistake. I might not care what happened to me but no one threatened Vishous like that. I stumbled, crawled and straight up dragged myself to the bathroom. I knew that I wasn’t getting rid of the lesser stink until V had taken care of it but I could at least not be wallowing in vomit when he got here. I turned on the bathtub water and let it flow while I peeled off my clothes and them in hamper in the corner. I wasn’t sure how Fritz got the smell out of them but he always seemed to manage it. I tossed my shoes on top of the pile and hoped he had some miracle for that as well. Lizard puke could not be good for the leather. A lot of grunting and groaning reverberated around the bathroom as I pulled myself into the tub.-Ahhh yeah, that feels better already. -My ass was still sore from what V had done but I wasn’t complaining. My eyes dropped closed as I got comfortable in the warm water. Not the Omega’s tool, the Brotherhood’s weapon. Maybe if I told myself that enough I would believe it. It wasn’t the mantra that I needed; it was the knowledge that I only belonged to one person, one male… and he was mine.-

Vishous

I had all my so called ducks in a row with the King, security had been amped up, backgrounds on all new inhabitants were done and in his hand, and all outside risk were eliminated. I was making my way back down through the tunnels when I felt that all too familiar pull dead center of my gut. Butch was in the vicinity and getting closer. A devilishly slow grin curled my lips up as I neared the Pit. I had a surplus of energy buzzing just under the surface and I wanted to exert every fucking bit of it on my male. I hit the code on the pad right next to the door and just as soon as I stepped through the threshold, the once curled up grin turned into a savage snarl. The sweet scent that wafted heavily in the air filled my nostrils up. At the same fucking second my mouth opened wide to shout out Butch‘s name, my fangs elongated fully to razor sharp points. “BUTCH!.” I bounded through the Pit following the stench and the pull at the same time only to end up rounding the corner to the bathroom like a bull seeing red.

Butch

-I was half asleep and slowly slipping into the bath water when I heard the unmistakable sound of an angry male, my male. I jerked up out of the water, sloshing some on the floor. He was like a force of nature tearing through the Pit. I could feel the blast from it even before he came anywhere near me. Sick from lesser crud and maybe still a little drunk and he could still make me hard as a rock. I had to hand it to him, the guy had skills. I heard my name shouted out and my response died in my throat as he came around the corner. My jaw hung open as I stared at the figure before me. My stomach was rolling but it wasn’t from what I had inhaled. Fluttering would probably be a better way to describe it.- Hey baby… -I licked my lips and swallowed. The water in the tub seemed cold as my body heated right up. No one should look this sexy when they are obviously pissed.-

Vishous

As soon as my eyes lit up on Butch sloshing around in the tub, it was like I could actually take a relieved breath. Even in those seconds leading up to coming into the bathroom, I had already gone through at least fifty different worst case scenarios of what I would see. Now that I could see that Butch was in one piece, I could move past all that fucked up shit that flooded my brain. I gripped the doorway and I was sure there would be some marks left in it from the hold I had on it. “I didn’t know that you took up a patrol tonight.” Finally I let my hand slip away from the wall so I could move further into the room. When I reached the edge of the tub, I kneeled down and leaned some on it before I pulled the leather glove off my hand. “Lay back and chill, we’ll get rid of this shit in no time.” 

Butch

-I could almost see you cooling down by degrees and I scrunched up my brow trying to imagine what you thought you would find.- I wasn’t. I went to ZeroSum with Rhage. -Shrugging some- What can I say? I missed the guy. Turns out he’s not such a fun date. -I relaxed back in the tub and just kind of kept mumbling.- We both got pretty wasted entirely too fast. -I raised my hand to my forehead and found the lump.- Took a header off the table. Or I guess more like over the table. So we split cause they were flashing us dirty looks. Aaaaannndd I guess we ran into lesser. Flash! Boom! Bang! Squished against the wall by a dragon with big ass breeding hips. 

Vishous

The power was already pulsating through me even before you relaxed back in the tub. My hand lit up but I didn’t feel a lick of the heat that was radiating from it when I lowered my palm down to that dark spot that was marring Butch‘s abdomen. I took a slow deep breath in and released it even slower as I pushed the power from me, into Butch. My chest rose and fell in a steady even rhythm of breaths the more I focused on cleansing the filth from Butch. It wasn’t till I could feel the last of the darkness draining away, that all of the words that had been spoken, registered in my brain. It was like someone set off a stick of dynamite under my ass. My hand jerked back and my body went from kneeling to looming over at Butch in the tub. The cleansing was complete, that much I knew but the power raging through me was at its all-time high. My eyes blazed and the steady breaths that I was inhaling seconds ago were now coming in ragged pulls. “Are you fucking kidding me? This isn’t the result from being on patrol?” I tried that count to ten things as I snatched up my glove and yanked it back on. All I could see is a drunken Butch running into Lesser, not only running into them but fighting them in that shape. My shoulders stooped low and I couldn’t or didn’t bother to hide my canines from hanging over my lip. “You lost your motherfucking mind Cop, you and Hollywood both have.” By now my tone was not shouting in the least, fuck no, it was controlled, deadly, laced with steal. “Tell me I am hearing you wrong, tell me I did not just hear that you and Rhage decided to take a drunken trip downtown and get into a fucking fight with Lesser?”

Butch

-I clung on to your hand as soon it was pressed to my skin. I rolled toward you in the tub and just let my tongue lull out the side of my mouth as I groaned and moaned. There was never anything to compare to your touch and I counted myself one lucky sob to receive it every time I took a trip through the land of nightmares. I could have just drifted off peacefully right then and there but your hand suddenly yanked from my grasp and my eyes shot wide open. I sat up straight in the tub and placed my hands on the side as I watched your mood switch straight back to pissed the fuck off again. I was still weak as a newborn calf but I managed to pull myself up with some semblance of dignity. I stared directly at you as I reached for a towel. I understood your anger. I probably woulda felt the same if I were in your spot right now. My voice was calm as I shakily stepped out of the water and wrapped the towel around my waist.- Yes. We went out with the express purpose of getting drunk. That is why we got a ride from a doggen and didn’t drive ourselves. -I stood in front of you with one hand pressed on the wall to hold me upright.- We were making our way directly to that ride home when the lesser found us. If I was less plastered I probably would have realized what a terrible idea it was to go toe to toe with them. -I grabbed another towel and dried off my hair quickly before hanging it back up.-Thank you for healing me. -I walked out of the bathroom and went straight to the bed, sitting down on the edge of it and feeling every bit as exhausted as I was right now.-

Vishous

The calm facade was lost on me, the tired stance meant jack shit. I let you have your say, listened to it, heard it and tossed it the fuck out the window. When you walked by I stood right there, I didn’t turn around until I could no longer hear your feet moving anymore. Finally I left the bathroom and came to stand a few feet in front of you. My tone was no different and neither was my mood. “Seems to me neither of you have any control over yourselves. In one night out to get a buzz, you all forgot how to send a simple 911 txt to any of your brothers who could have dematted to you both. You all took on a situation that could have been prevented. The worst part is you did it all in plain sight. Both of you risked not only your lives but the lives of the Brotherhood.” Again my fingers were flexing and straining to the point I could feel a pulse beating in each one of them. Even as I spoke the words I could see it play out clearly as if I was there watching. “You sucking down a Lesser like a big fucking gulp and Rhage going medieval beast right there for any fucking body to see. You claim you wanted a good time, but what you really did was fuck our security up the ass with no lube.” My spine shivered with the red hot rage coursing through me. I turned away and went to the closet, in no time I was dressed in my usual gear from the ends of my shitkickers to the baseball hat I shoved on my head. When I stepped back out I gave one last glance at you. “I’m out of here before I end up beating the fuck out you, rest up Cop from your night of fun.” I didn’t nod, smirk or any damn thing as I stalked through the pit and left.

Butch

-I stared up at you in silence. Hell I wasn’t allowed a word in edge wise. No room to say ‘I’m sorry’ or ‘I know I fucked up’. No, all I could do was sit there and take every bit of that anger straight on and then watch as you walked out that door. I honestly thought we had been through enough to be able to talk things out but that apparently wasn’t the case. What I got instead was a threat of being beaten, something I never thought to hear fall from those lips. And to think, my only thought had been to get home to him. What a stupid fool I was. I looked down at my wedding ring and twisted it around my finger a few times. Every action had a consequence, I knew that, and this was mine. But he had one too. There was no damn way that I was going to let the person that I trusted enough to give myself over to tell me that he wanted to beat the fuck out of me. It ruined every step that I had taken with him and tore me to shreds inside. I picked up my phone and made a call to have a chosen brought in. I stood up from the bed and gathered up some of my belongings in a bag. It took some doing, but I managed to get some clothes on. He would come back and probably still be pissed at me but I wasn’t going to bend over and just take it. I grabbed up my smokes, shouldered my bag and left the Pit. I tracked down Fritz and had him set me up with a different room in the mansion, letting him know that I had a chosen on the way and where I could be found. As soon as I walked into the room it felt wrong but then again so did our bed without him. I threw my things down in the corner and sat in a chair waiting for the female. She came in all pleasant and full of manners and I tried to hide my sour mood. She sat down in the chair next to me and I took her wrist before anything else could be said. I wasn’t about to drag this out, I just wanted to feed and be done with her. I didn’t even look at her as my fangs bit through her skin, staring at the opposite wall instead. There was nothing flashy or dramatic about it. I had my fill, I thanked her and she left. That was it. I felt like a zombie as I finally moved to the bed and laid down. I knew that I wasn’t going to get any sleep but at least I could be laying down while I was at it. I looked up at the ceiling with a blank expression and stayed that way. Even well after I heard the shutters go down with the rising of the sun.-

Vishous

I left the Pit and bailed out through the tunnels. I didn’t take the Escalade; I opted for dematting and getting the fuck outta dodge quickly. I was losing what control I was still grasping onto. A night out was one thing, fuck have a week out if that was in order but damn to be as careless and foolish as to risk all in the name of being too drunk, I call that a bullshit excuse. Sadly one of my biggest flaws was seeing the ramifications of the downfalls, the domino effect of ones choices. It was one reason why I took the security shit serious as fuck. I had to make sure each individual was secure, just like the backgrounds and then there was the recon of cleaning messes up. Just like I was doing now. I came to form in a back alley near ZS.I would stay in the shadows and make sure there weren’t any whispers or outright screaming over what went down here hours ago. I kept close to the buildings, keeping my back covered but paying extreme attention to all those that wondered around carelessly. I listened, watched and followed a few that was talking rapidly about being at the club. After a couple hours of doing that mundane shit I felt decently confident that neither of them had been busted. In that time my anger had dissipated but my mood was no better. That wasn’t a shocker; I didn’t expect it to be so fuck it. I looked up at the night sky that was lightening up by degrees before I left the area and focused on the Manse. When I opened my eyes I didn’t waste any time to high tail it through the garage and back down the tunnels. I had no doubt Butch was pissed, but if shit was flipped I know he’d flip a gasket on my ass. My steps slowed when I got to the Pit and even before I opened the door I knew he wasn’t inside. My gut knotted up and I walked on in. So far so good, nothing was broke, or any holes in the walls, I walked in further and headed to the bedroom. That was where all hell broke loose in me, not much was gone but I knew exactly what he took, all the way down to the bag he used. I felt the heat creeping up my flesh and I was surprised as fuck that the clothes on my body didn’t burn away from the explosion that ripped through me. There was no thought, there was no planning, and I was now running on pure reaction. Leave me once, worked through it, dealt; leave me twice, FUCK NO! In seconds I had my hands on every piece of furniture that I had carefully picked out for him and beat, slammed and destroyed it beyond recognition. Fuck being in control, fuck always holding shit together, fuck it all I thought. I didn’t stop there I went from room to room taking the whole place apart piece by bulky piece. Only a few walls were saved from having either my fist or pieces of broken furniture lodged in them. I kept hearing in my head all his promises, pledges to never leave me again, all of it was fucking lies. I knew he wasn’t far, fuck that, this was what we both claimed as our home, our sanctuary, a place that was ours and ours alone and he bailed on me, he took things and removed himself and them from here. I finished my tirade by taking my dagger to the mattress and shredding it down to the springs. By the time I was done I brought my breathing back under control, I calmly placed my dagger back in my holster and straightened my jacket up. I stepped over and on whatever was in my path as I left the Pit and went down the tunnels to my own place, the one area no one dared to walk in, course no one could because not a soul had the code to get inside. As soon as I entered I felt the burst of familiar heat hit me face on. A sinister smirk curled my lip up over my fang and I stripped my jacket, weapons, and shirt off right before I jacked the temp up on my forge and went to work on beating out all that was rampant in me.

Stupid Drunk

Butch

-I was feeling pretty good about my little talk with Piper. I might have been avoiding it for a ridiculous amount of time but I thought that it turned out well. And I really did plan on at least attempting to be a better brother even though I wasn’t entirely sure what that would be. So long as she didn’t actually try for the whole vamp by death thing, I thought she would be fine. I shuddered to even think of that option as I recalled my own struggle through it. Me and Death, we were tight. We’d sat down and had drinks together. He promised not to really snag me before my time and I promised to drop by every now and then so he wouldn’t get lonely. I walked back into the manse and had my feet turned in the direction of the Pit before I changed my mind. I cocked my head to the side with a grin and turned toward Rhage’s room instead. I hadn’t seen the guy in what seemed like forever and he could really be a funny fucker to hang out with. I still remembered when I first met the whole gang. It was Rhage that plowed into me like a mack truck all while Vishous stood there and watched. Oh fun times. I laughed as I lifted my hand to the door and gave the customary cop knock.-Pigs are comin for ya. Better hide the goods.

Rhage

[[I’d been spending most of my down time either on the phone with Lia, watching a fuck load of porn cause I was thinking about her or watching some funny as fuck movies. Bill Murray was totally under rated. I’d just started ‘Caddy Shack’; digging my paw into a big fat bowl of popcorn that #Fritz had sent up when a fist pounded on my door. I would’ve growled but the smell of some rank ass expensive shit slipped under the door and the only slightly grating accent that accompanied Butch call.]] Your lips, my ass Cop. [[Laughing hard, I set the bowl aside and got up, walking over to throw open the door.]] What’s doin’, Butch? [[Grinning.]]

Butch

You’re cute and all but my door only swings that way for one brother, Rhage. But if you want it sucked on that badly I’m sure you could rustle up something. You always seem to be able to. -leaning back against the door frame with a huge grin- How the hell have you been? You don’t call, you don’t write. I’m starting to think you don’t like me. 

Rhage

Damn [[Putting a mocking look of hurt on my mug for Butch as I crossed my arms over the bulk of my chest.]] you mean the big “Fuck off Cop" banner that I had flashing downtown was too subtle? [[Breaking into a broad grin Butch.]]Beside, who the fuck broke your phone fucker. [[Bringing my hand up to gesture between Butch and I.]] Both ways. [[Chuckling.]] Before the rest of the girls show up for this fucking gab fest, I need a drink. You down, Butch?

Butch

-I was halfway to saying that some lesser broke my phone when I stopped and pursed my lips.- Well you know with that shit that went down with my sister I didn’t know if you would want to talk to me. -I tilted my head looking at Rhage-You know I’m always up for a drink. Shiiiiiit, like that’s even a question. Put your clod hoppers on and let’s paint the town. 

Rhage

[[Turning on my heel and making fast tracks to my closet, stuffing my feet into the first pair of shoes I find.]] Nah Butch, you know what they say man, Bros befor…. [[Shutting my mouth as fast as I fucking can, don’t need Butch trying to throw me a beating. Yeah it’d be funny to see Butch try but why rock the boat. Lunking a bit slowly back to the door.]] Uhh, you driving?

Butch

-My brow shot up at the common phrase that Rhage cut off saying- I’m just going to ignore that and slide into asking if you are gonna be cool? I really don’t want to have to jump in the middle of that shit storm. I might ruin a suit or something. -I watched Rhage throw his shoes on and shook my head.- No way am I goin out to get plastered and taking my baby. Sure to wrap that shit around a tree. Let’s get some doggen to take us. -jabbing my finger back toward the hall-

Rhage

Yeah, we cool. [[Clapping Butch on the shoulder as I shoulder past you and into the hall.]] It’s the past and [[Turning and flashing my trademark grin at Butch.]] I got my eyes on the future. [[Smirking as I turn to jog down the stairs. Lia’s face my mind.]]

Butch

-I rolled my shoulder and straightened my suit coat, following after Rhage- That sounds… healthy… -stopping the first doggen I see with our request for a ride-You sure you are feeling alright? Share with me, oh mighty one. What is this grand vision of the future that you see before you?

Rhage

[[Rolling my shoulders in a non-commital shrug at Butch as I attempted to wipe the shit eating grin off my face.]] How’s the wife? [[Following the doggen out to the garage with Butch, I nearly groaned when I heard the Benz’s locks click off, muttering.]] Great.

Butch

Oh yeah, nice deflection there asswhipe. -shoving my fist into the back of Rhage’s shoulder- He hears you saying that and he would probably make ya pay for it. Make sure you tell me before you do that so I can watch. -I opened the car door and called out to Rhage- Get in the damn car. Night’s not gettin any younger. -ducking into the car-

Rhage

Suck my left nut Cop, [[Cracking the fuck up as I get in the back next to Butch.]]I mean that’d be a new one for ya. [[Waggling my brows Butch as we pull out and head for ZS. Suddenly laughing even harder as I get a visual of V in an apron.]]

Butch

Gosh, Rhage. How did you know that I have been dying to know what a left nut tastes like? -rolling my eyes and throwing my hands up- Alright man, let’s get to it. Bare it all. -shifts toward Rhage with an expectant look- You just can’t get enough of this sexy mouth. It’s okay if you admit it. We all go a lil gay sometimes. 

Rhage

[[Puckers up my lips and makes kissy noises Butch, batting my lashes. Fuck I’d’ve tossed the fucking kitchen sink in with this line shit if I could’ve. I held on as long as I could before busting a fucking gut laughing.]] Shit Butch, got mad love for ya man but never been gay for ya for a minute. [[Shaking my head as I start to laugh even harder at Butch.]]

Butch

No shit?! -clasping my hand to my chest all wounded like- Then stop asking me to kiss and suck on your nether regions ya sick fuck. -kicking Rhage’s foot-Besides, you know that all this is only for one sexy stud. You’re going to have to get way the fuck in the back of that line. -Laughing and looking out the window as the car pulls up to ZeroSum- I’m not gonna be stuck drinking alone while you spend your time in the stalls am I? Cause that would really suck. -Getting out of the car-

Rhage

[[Snorting as I punch Butch’s shoulder before getting out of the car. Almost immediately starting to nod my head to the pounding bass of the music.]] You know me Butch, not one for lines. [[Chuckling as I nod to the bouncer, moving behind him to walk into the dim interior of ZeroSum. Not bothering to speak over the music to Butch, knowing he can easily hear me.]] Just drinking drinking Cop. I’m off the skanks. 

Butch

-I quickly turn around just before we get to the customary ‘brotherhood’ table and give Rhage a wide eyed look, sure that I heard him wrong.- You have got to be shittin me. -Mocking a stumble forward and grabbing on to Rhage’s arms like I’m going to faint.- You!? The biggest manwhore I know. You, have given up the skanks? -leaning in closer and whispering- Should I have brought the chains tonight? V’s got a very nice selection ya know. I really don’t want to have to explain to Rehv why his place burst at the seems with a sudden abundance of scaly flesh. 

Rhage

[[Just shaking my head at Butch when I help hold you up with one arm, holding up the other to signal the waitress, mouthing.]] Two bottles. [[Giving Butch a shove towards the booth.]] Shut the fuck up asshat. Rehv’s place is gonna be fine. I… let’s just say, I not lookin. [[Winking my thanks to the waitress as a bottle of Lag was set down for Butch and a bottle for me.]]

Butch

-I let out a loud laugh and slide into the booth, snagging up the bottle and not even bothering with a glass before I tip it back. Hissing at the burn that feels so good and trying my damnedest to not let on that my ass is still on fire.- Not looking implies that you found. -Grinning and tilting my head toward Rhage-What gives man? You find some hottie?

Rhage

[[Snagging my own bottle as I drop into the booth near Butch, cracking open the booze as I cock a leg out and get comfortable. Chuckling as I bring the bottle to my mouth.]] Please Butch you know I’m rocking the ugly bitches.[[Snorting and tipping back the bottle and taking a pull before answering Butch.]] There’s a fine as fuck woman.

Butch

-It had been far too long since I’d sat at this booth with another brother. I could recall a time when it was a common occurrence and now it seemed like we were all too wrapped up in our own messes or fighting lesser to kick back and enjoy the tight bonds that we had always had before. I was swigging away at the bottle of Lag and had it halfway downed by the time I looked back over at Rhage.- So spill, bro. What is this chick like? Where’d ya meet her? All that good stuff.

Rhage

[[Lounging back against the slick black leather of the booth, the VIP area of ZS was crowded but nothing like the the main floor. I was nodding my head to the beat of the music between drinks but I hadn’t looked at a female other than the waitress since and I had rolled in. Cocking a brow Butch’s questions.]] She’s…she’s fucking fine, man. Hot as hell. [[Drops my voice, hoping that Butch doesn’t hear me.]] We met here.

Butch

-I’d already made it through the rest of my bottle and was calling for another one by the time Rhage stopped bee-bopping and answered my question. I leaned in a little too close to Rhage and ended up planting my forehead on his shoulder.- Cum again? My hearing aint what it used to be… it’s better! -Popping my head up with a wide grin- I coulda sworn ya jus said you met dis chick here. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m sure you meet a lotta chicks here. Jus not the ‘swear off all others’ type. More like the ‘been round the block a few times’ type. 

Rhage

[[Cracking up with laughter when Butch’s forehead smacks against my shoulder. I drained the last of my bottle and held it up to give the waitress a hint.]] Yeah man, used to be my thing. Get in, get off, get out. Not Lia, Butch. [[Twitching my shoulder up to knock Butch’s forehead before smiling a little glassy eyed at the waitress.]]

Butch

So she does have a name! -laughing and grabbing up the next bottle to appear before me- I was wondering if ya even stopped ta pick up tha bit o info. Soooo… -leaning over the table to stare at Rhage head on- Ya bringin er home ta daddy?

Rhage

[[Grabbing my bottle even before the serving wench can set that shit down, I tip it back and take a long drink. Shaking my head as I roll with laughter.]] Daddy? Da fuck you talkin’ ‘bout? [[Reaching over to flick your forehead and missing.]]

Butch

-I saw the slow moving finger coming straight at my eye. I managed to close the lid in time to keep any major damage at bay. My other reaction came much later as I lurched back with an angry growl- I need dat fur lookin ah stuff. -I swatted out with my hand and ended up grabbing the bottle instead. Grinning like I just found some kind of prize and tipping it back. I took a moment to suck down a breath- Ya know… -whispering like it’s a huge secret but not really whispering-Tha Keeng.

Rhage

Shiiiit, my bad man. [[Clutching the neck of my bottle like it was a fucking life line or something. My eyes going unfocused I put a finger to my lips in an attempt to shush Butch only loud enough for half of the VIP section to hear me.]] Dats a secret dumbnuts. 

Butch

-My eyes went cross as I looked down at the finger that was now on my lips. I mumbled through the finger.- Ya sill dinah answear dah queshon. Ahr ya tring ta dodge et?

Rhage

[[My brow popped up as I watched Butch.]]Wha? Cop, I don’ think dat was… wat was dat? [[Sitting back, I lifted the bottle and drained it dry then set it on the table in front of Butch.]] Catch up beotch.

Butch

Taint nah bish! -Sloshing my bottle back and making a mess of it-Sunsahbishes! Wrune mah fensey duds. I fink aw nid sum mahr. -tipping my bottle upside down- Dis won ish empetty. 

Rhage

[[Slapping my palm down on the table top at Butch’s antics.]] You drunks Butchie. [[Weaving a bit as I sit back against the booth.]] Nother bottle?

Butch

Woooo dah. -Pushing my hands into Rhage’s side because I’m sure he’s about to fall over on top of me- Ah dunnah. Yah trin tah durink meh unner dah teeball er gimme ta dince awn et?

Rhage

[[Makes the Pillsbury Doughboy sound when Butch’s hand presses into me then leaning back to dig in my pocket, pulling out a thick stack of bills, peeling off a $20 and tossing it Butch.]] Gedda ass up der dince.

Butch

Hoooo! Hawdahm! I hon disss. -I pressed my hands to the table and stood up on the seat that I was on. I stood up somewhat unsteadily and started pulling my suit coat off. I had one foot on top of the table and the coat twisted around my head when my other foot caught the edge of the table and I went flying over the top. I took the table with me as my head met with the ground and I just kinda laid there like a crash test dummy.-

Rhage

[[I started to laugh as soon as Butch got up but the awkward gyrations were even better than when he made like the Titanic, I lost my shit. Bouncers and staff were rushing over to see if Butch was okay and #Trez moved in to try to hold most of them off. Lurching to my feet, I stumbled the few steps to Butch, stepping on his hand in the process.]] Shet, fuuuck. [[Reaching down I somehow managed to get my hand under Butch’s armpit and hauled you up, nearly running myself into the wall in the process.]]

Butch

-I let out a loud howl that sounded more like a dying alley cat when Rhage stepped on my foot but it was more because I thought it should hurt, not because it actually did. I kind of flopped over and saw that everyone and their dog was coming over to see what was going on- Sheet. Dayz awn ta uss. Whe beddah git oudda hur -slumping against Rhage as he drags me off the floor-

Rhage

[[Hauling Butch up and staggering towards the door at the back of the VIP area, it lead out to the opposite alley from the car but Butch could stagger our asses over there. Hitting the push bar and stumbling out into the night with you.]] Da fuk, you heeeavy.

Butch

-I stumbled along with Rhage. Half holding him up, half holding myself up. I looked around trying to find the Escalade.- Dewd… Wha deed ah pahk mah cah? 

Rhage

[[Laughing hard Butch as we made a rolling walk down the alley.]] Member, we got drive in da keeengs car. Da pussy movile.

Butch

Wut da fook? Ya gah sumfin genst ah cah? Rea-dunk-cull-us. -Bobbing and weaving down the alley.- Ewe nose wha? Dar ish sum kine uf teengalling seasation… -swiveling my head left and right- Nut een mah pains neffer… 

Rhage

[[Losing my grip on Butch as I start to laugh so hard I’m nearly crying, I end up stumbling to the wall and hanging on for dear life.]] Wha chu talkin ‘bou Butch?[[Digging in my pocket, I pull out a Grape Tootsie Pop, unwrap it and stuff it in my mouth and look over Butch as my nostrils flare as I pick up the light scent of babypowder on the air.]] Fuck.

Butch

Mang… -Groaning loudly and turning toward the direction that I know the lesser are coming from.- Doan tall meh tha wee godda kik sum azz righ neow. -wrinkling my nose at the smell- Iz nah dah tym ta eet canny. -I leaned heavily against the wall and searched through my pockets for a weapon. I had to grab up and under my shirt to find a dagger and I’m sure I looked more like I was scratching an itch that was hard to get to.- 

Rhage

[[Turning to look down the alley, I’m nearly cross eyed. Glancing over to Butch, I wanted to ask why he was scratching his nipple but the Lesser that came into view stopped that. My hand went for one of my concealed pockets and I pulled a blade free.]] 

Butch

-My hand came out with my dagger in my hand and I got a big goofy grin on my face like it was my birthday.- Foun et. -Holding the dagger up proudly. I shifted some, getting ready to fight in what no doubt was a fearsome display of drunken monkey kong foo.- Oooohhh lewk ad diss! -Reaching into my coat and pulling out a gun that I could now feel at my side.- Ah gut won uf deez towah. -Raising up the gun and firing it off at nothing… nothing at all.- I fink eye gaht won! 

Rhage

[[I couldn’t tell if Butch was swaying or if it was me…fuck it was probably both of us. Snorting when I saw you pull out a gun, I watched as Butch pulled off a shot that winged the brick wall about 15 feet from anything and I’d have started to laugh again but the tattoo on my back was starting to move. Pushing off of the wall, I lurched past Butch towards the Lesser.]]

Butch

-I screwed my eyes up trying to figure out exactly what I was seeing.- Ah mahn. Iz dah free ohr feif o’ dem? -I closed one eye and took aim again. I fired off another shot that I hoped missed Rhage and actually got the bastard. I decided to give up on the gun thing and tucked it back away. I jumped forward and almost fell over my own feet.- Eeeeyyyyeee-eeeeee! -Shouting out boldly as I charged forward with my dagger held high. I tripped on an abandon bottle and windmilled forward arms flying madly. I ran into a very confused lesser and took him to the ground with me.-

Rhage

[[The sound of the gun and the whistle as the slug passed by my when Butch took a shot probably should’ve made me pause but I was too drunk an itching for the fight to care. Stumbling towards the Lesser, I pulled the sucker from my mouth and made to hand it to the albino motherfucker.]] Hol dis, eye’m gunna…[[Letting my words trail off as I lunge forward and take the Lesser to the ground, lollipop flying off somewhere.]] 

Butch

-I looked down at the lesser that I had underneath me. I’d apparently landed on him blade first and it was now sticking out of his shoulder because he was yowling something fierce.- Shhhh… -I slapped him on the side of the head to get him to shut up. He started struggling instead. My head staggered back and forth some and I thought maybe I looked like a cool ass snake or some shit.-Uuuu godda purdy mouf. -I held his head still because it seemed to be moving like a sonofabitch. I opened my mouth and drew in the lesser’s essence in a slow intake of breath. I staggered and coughed a bit before getting it done but in the end he finally disappeared in a cloud of dust.-

Rhage

[[I had to assume that Butch was doing okay with his Lesser because when I went for mine he tried to dodge to the right so I didn’t land on the fucking like I’d planned. Rolling and coming up on my feet, I was swaying and seeing two bastards in front of me instead of one and my side was burning like a motherfucker. Barreling forward, I swung the knife with one and punched with the other. Yeah, I missed with both and wouldn’t you know the Lesser was packing a blade too and I got cut again. Growling my anger, I could feel myself shrinking back into the safe zone in my head as the Beast took over there was a blinding flash of light and in my place was a massive lizard. Roaring, I dipped my head and swallowed the Lesser whole.]]

Butch

-I barely caught sight of what was going on with Rhage but I could definitely pick up on the angry noises.- Awww nah… Shizzzz! -I managed to roll to the side and cover my head before the hallelujah, angels and god descending light flashed my retinas into never never land. I didn’t even have time to do anything else because big, fat and ugly smashed me up against the nearest wall and made a pancake out of my fleshy parts. I gurgled out some type of curse that sounded more like the sound your boots make when they slosh through a big pile of mud. I tried raising my arm to tap out on Rhage’s… ass? Maybe it was his tail or his leg. I couldn’t tell.-

Rhage

[[My senses were hyper aware and I could almost feel Butch as I mushed him up against the brick wall but I was focused on the last baddie that was trying to get out of the area. He didn’t get far, I whipped my tail out and took him down. My head went down, jaws opened wide and my tongue swept over the pasty bastard before clamping my jaws on him. Tossing my head back so that the Lesser was tossed into the air and catching him, only to swallow him down. I stumbled away from Butch and went down on my side, the ground might actually have shook from the force. As soon as I was down there was another retina burning flare of light and I was lying naked on the pavement, groaning.]] 

Butch

-Just as soon as I was able to finally catch my breath again, the ground went on a rock and roll ride. It felt like I was on some kind of roller coaster ride and I was quickly turning green in the face. I actually caught the full force of the blinding light this time and that was the final straw, my ticket was punched. I gagged a few times, trying to hold it back, and finally just gave the fuck up. I full on projectile vomited black goop all over the place. Least I was pretty sure it was all over the place judging from the velocity that it left my throat, I couldn’t see a damn thing and I only hoped that I didn’t spray down my brother.-

Rhage

[[Groaning even louder when a warm liquid splashed all over my lower body, I was praying that it wasn’t Butch’s blood. It only took a second before the smell hit and I knew it wasn’t Butch’s blood, nope the motherfucker just puked all over me. I did the only thing that I could at that moment. I heaved all over the ground in front of me. Part of me was hoping I coated Butch in vomit as payback. Grunting]] If you’re not dead fucker, doggen. [[I hoped you got to call the doggen with the car.]]

Butch

-I blinked a few times to try to get my eyesight back and ended up grinding the palms of my hands into the sockets. Rhage come back with a volley of his own toxic yuck and it almost started all over again. I retched a few times, my body shaking some with the effort to hold it back. When I opened my eyes again I could see… kinda…- Sonofabish! You got it all over my good shoes! Now I’m gonna be all squidgy and shit. -I kicked toward Rhage but also pulled my phone out cause I sure as fuck didn’t wanna carry a million pounds of bloated brother back to the car.- Keep your… nevermind… you already done took it all off… Well the doggen is coming.

Rhage

[[Laying on the hard pavement, arms wrapped protectively around my slightly distended stomach as I continued to retch and dry heave. Fuck I hated this part of things. I won’t deny that it was pretty cool that I could turn into my own cooler version of Godzilla, I mean who the fuck wouldn’t want a tail they could whip around. It’s just this indigestion thing that sucks ass. I heard Butch say something but I wasn’t sure exactly what it was, so I just groaned out.]] Never living this down Butch NEVER.

Butch

Shut it, doughboy. -poking Rhage’s stomach as I struggled up off the ground- It was all fun and games until someone called in Puff the magic dragon. -I could see the doggen pull into the alley and I motioned him in- You know we are going to laugh about this later. Much later… after a fuck load of coffee. -I bent down and weakly hooked my arms under Rhage- Lil help here -Calling out to the doggen. Between him and me we finally managed to get Rhage into the back seat.- No offense dude but I think you actually stink worse than I do this time. Maybe it’s cause I puked on ya. Yeah, that’s probably it. Mah bad.

Rhage

[[Grunting when Butch and the doggen heaved me up and dragged me to the car and all but tossed my ass in the backseat. I was fine until the door was shut and I was surrounded by my own stench. I was pretty fucking sure that I had stink waves coming off of me, that just set off another round of dry heaves. I did manage to glance up Butch and raise a hand so that I could flip you off.]]

Butch

-I flopped into the front seat and quickly remembered why I didn’t want to do that.- Yuuup. Alcohol has worn off. Gonna need some more. -I rolled my window clear the fuck down and motioned for the doggen to do the same to the rest. I glanced over the back of the seat to catch the bird up front and center.- I know you love me dude but I’m totally gonna pass on that offer. -I kind of curled up in my own seat and tried to think happy thoughts so I didn’t end up puking again. I practically stuck my head out the window on the ride back to the manse. I closed my eyes and thought of my male sitting in the Pit somewhere. It was a much more pleasant thought than realizing that I’d actually broken embargo on sucking down lesser. Maybe it was a good thing that I’d gone out with Rhage after all. I was half asleep and jolted back awake when I noticed that the car had stopped.- Honey! I’m home! -I fell out of the car as soon as I opened the door. On my hands and knees I crawled over to Rhage’s door and opened it for him.- I’m gonna need 5 men, a forklift and two horses.

Rhage

[[Snorting at Butch’s comment before laying my head back on the seat, I let the cool fresh air wash over me. At some point Butch decided to do the Lassie routine with his head and the window; I started to laugh but my fucking gut hurt so bad I ended up groaning instead. I rocked forward when the car stopped and slapped my face against the back of the front head rest.]] Motherfu…[[Then nearly falling out on top of Butch when he pulled open my door.]] Just your bullheaded ass and V.

Butch

-My hands flew out automatically to keep Rhage from falling on me.- Ummmm… To the casual eye this might seem like something it aint. Ya mind getting the fuck off of me? -attempting to push Rhage back up with a grunt- And brother… I’m not in any kind of shape to even tie my own shoes right now. -I looked up at the doggen who got out of the car worried.- Oi! You mind grabbing some hands here? He weighs a ton ya know.

Rhage

[[Glaring at Butch my words slurring a little still.]] Firss of all I’m a delicate motherfucking flower. Seconna all [[Belching loud hanging on to the door for dear life so I don’t fall on Butch.]] you’re already doing the horsey thing, lemme get on an giddyap.

Butch

Tha fuck you are! -Grabbing on to every piece of the car that I can to drag my ass off the ground. I end up slumped over the trunk.- Don’t make me call the doc in here to play nurse maid to your flowery delicate ass. Cause I would totally do that and not give a flying fuck about the fight that came from it.

Rhage

[[Letting a loud growl rip out of my chest then doubling over and retching loudly.]] Cocksucker. [[I managed somehow to get out of the car next to where Butch was standing sort of, without pitching over to smash my face into the driveway. Curling over, I cradled my stomach as I started to shuffle towards the door with the Doggen at my elbow.]] Call her Butch and I’ll castrate you.

Butch

You say the sweetest things to me, Rhage. -Chuckling and making a frantic dash to the nearest wall that looked more like a kid that was just learning to walk.- Oooohhh ~Piper~ -not really expecting an answer or even raising my voice that loud- Naked guy on the loose! -Stumbling along using the wall to hold me up- Oh wall… you are my best friend right now. 

Rhage

[[I was doing just fine until Butch played the trump card and called out to Piper, I fucking hoped she didn’t hear that cause I was hurting too bad and was too not sober to deal with her. To make matters worse, I tripped over my own feet just as I reached the short set of marble stairs and hello Mr. Forehead welcome to Eggland. I rolled over, groaned.]] Leave me to die.

Butch

-I was just getting ready to turn toward the Pit when I saw Rhage hit the dirt like a sack of potatoes.- Yuuuup. Naked man down! Call in the reserves! PIPER! need a gurney for ole scaly butt! -No way I was making it all the way back to the PT room- 

Piper

-I heard my name echo, knowing exactly what it meant. And yeah I groaned like a mother fucker when I heard “scaly".- Of course! -I rose quickly smacking my knee on my desk as I did, grunting out a mother fuck as my hands fumbled with the gurney. Bursting through the PT doors towards Butch and a hopefully unconscious Rhage cause I was no where near ready to deal with that-

Rhage

[[Flopping around on the stairs like a nearly dead fish as Piper pulls up with the gurney. I catch sight of her out of the corner of my eye.]] Butch, you’re nuts, I’m gonna Ginsu ‘em. GONE! [[Grunting as I roll over to look at Piper.]] Piper.

Butch

-Tossing a hand toward Rhage in a ‘yeah right’ gesture- Tell me another one buddy. You’d have to make it past my hellren first. Good frickin luck with that. Speaking of my hellren… -noticing that Piper seems to have arrived with the gurney- You two play nice now. I need to see the man with the magic touch. -shuffles along the edge of the wall toward the Pit-

Piper

We’ll aren’t you two…plastered…and you stink fuck me -I tried not to gag as I watched two Doggens load Rhage onto the gurney, side eyeing the oh so graceful exit of my brother- I’ll check on you tomorrow Butch -Lifting two very nervous and unsteady hands to grip the metal again and glancing down at Rhage- Do I even wanna ask what the hell happened to bring big bad and scaly out? 

Rhage

[[Growling again because I can’t even lift my arm to flip off Butch after the Doggen settle me on the gurney, I end up rolling to the side the throwing up all over Piper’s shoes. Groaning, I roll back onto my back and wipe my mouth with the back of my hand.]] Sorry Piper. [[Attempting to keep the pride out of my voice.]]

Piper

-It was like slow motion as Rhage yakked and I stood there in stunned silence willing the sudden rush of vomit catapulting up throat to slow just a little- Mother fuck.. -Frantically kicking off my shoes, and dropping my now narrowed gaze at Rhage- Its OK just…-my head only shook as I shoved the gurney again and slammed through the PT doors- Rhage What happened?

Rhage

[[Groaning as the gurney jams into the doors and bangs into the corner as Piper starts down the hall.]] Don’t do me favors, And da fuck you think happened Piper, [[Rolling my eyes as I gritted my teeth against another wave of nausea.]] I said fuck my hips and just gorged on ice cream. Lessers Piper. [[My eyes flaring wide as the gurney stops and a scent rolls off of Turning so that my ass is facing Piper, I start to dry heave again. She fucking bonded with someone.]]

Piper

I meant anything else smart fucking ass -Turning to grab a blanket before I got an eye full of Rhage but as I turned around again…my brows shot up and I groaned low quickly covering the puke covered bloated warrior on my table. As much as I hated Rhage for leaving the way he did and trust me, It was taking all my self control to not say anything. But he was family and we needed to at least be civil right? Rhage gagged again, his whole body trembling as he did. I moved in with a bucket to catch anything and smiled softly- You realize we are gonna need to hose you off right? -I jested half expecting a spew of vomit to be my answer- 

Rhage

Just roll me inta a room an leave Piper. [[At this point, I didn’t care if I was being a fucking asshole. I felt like I was giving birth to that fucking cuddly, squirmy thing from Alien and Piper reeked of some male’s bonding scent. I didn’t want Piper, we’d made it clear to each other that things just weren’t going to wo… yeah okay so I’m acting like a bitch,  groaning loudly.]] Fuck… 

Piper

-Shaking my head with a sigh as I rested the bucket to the floor and moved to stare down at Rhage, arms folded across my chest. My heart ached, head pounded and I just felt like there were more emotions coursing through me than I could even deal with concerning Rhage, especially when I heard the fuck that left his mouth- You about done being stubborn? Or have you forgotten I rarely listen? -Dropping my arms to lean in close enough to hook one round Rhage’s side- At least sit up a little so I can get you to drink your magical fizzy crap?

Rhage

[[Gritting my teeth as Piper helped me to sit up some and then I gulped down a glass of Alka-Seltzer. The overly fizzy water making me grimace and belch loudly in Piper’s face. I couldn’t help but chuckle a little and then I did it again.]]‘Scuse me.

Piper

-The instant Rhage warm foul breath catch my nose the gag refluxed overtime, I had to turn my head quickly to escape- Fuck me running. How many did you eat? And further more…drink? 

Rhage

[[Listing dangerously to the side as I lifted my hand and flashed 3 fingers at Piper not quite sure which question I was answering but taking quite a bit of satisfaction in making Piper gag.]] Strong stomach, my ass. [[Snorting as I lay back.]]

Piper

You’re an asshole Rhage -Turning back to glare, even nudging your side gently with my own pleased grin- Now…can we get you cleaned up and at least smelling less….-Closing my eyes and swallowing the bile back down- rank?

Rhage

You just wanna see my sexy ass naked again Piper admit it. [[I didn’t bother to waggle my brows cause we both knew that it was a shit statement.]] I can do it. 

Piper

-Chuckling softly at Rhage’s joke, shaking my head some- You know it Hollywood. I missed it in fact. Irregardless of how you or I…-Groaning as I lifted my free hand to cover my face, shielding it from Rhage as I mumbled- I’ll let the Doggens know fresh linens are needed. And some clothes…-I stammered rising quickly to my feet, wanting to curl up in a hole and hide away or run. Running always works- I’ll leave you to it then. If you need anything let me know ok?

Rhage

[[Waiting until I heard Piper flee the room, I curled up on the gurney. Grunting and groaning loudly until I burped so loudly that the walls shook. Feeling a little better I was able to close my eyes and settle down and attempt to sleep, I’d shower later.]]

Piper

-I stopped outside the pt, back pressed to the wall as my eyes closed and I heaved a heavy breath in some sorry attempt to clear my head. Whatever I felt for Rhage wasn’t the same but there was still a part of me that wanted to know why or even how he could just leave the way he did. But all in the same breath…if he didn’t I wouldn’t have Z. I didn’t for once regret that. In fact I broke out into a run, not even caring about the funk that covered every square inch of skin. I just needed to be close to my Nallum. I burst through Z’s doors, searching for any sign of the brother before finally blowing out a huff as my hands shook at the heaven- Of course…-Laughing as I once again calmed myself, the scent of puke and whatever else found my nose again, I turned towards the bathroom and began shedding my clothes. Maybe my Nallum would be there when I got out, or he’d be home in a few hours after patrol to wrap his strong arms around me and tug me in close while mumbling he loved me in my ear.-